Day 2

I don't think I ever realized how much I eat - and like to eat - until I started fasting!

As a stay-at-home mom, I can usually eat whatever I want, whenever I want. I wouldn't consider myself an overeater, but when I'm hungry, I can choose anything in the house to eat. Including the jellybeans stashed in the cupboard right now (grr - Easter candy).

Today was rough in that respect. I was hungry most of the day. Many of the things I ate were not fulfilling. At least compared to what I normally eat.

I had to confront my flesh.

The hunger, the headaches - lots of thinking about poor me.

And realizing it's not about me.

There haven't been too many times in my life where I've intentionally denied myself like this, on this scale.

This denial of the flesh is making room for more of Him.

As I drove to meet a friend for lunch today (without my children - woohoo!), I had the radio on and suddenly felt the need to turn it off.

My mind went back to this morning's devotional - to "tuning in" to God's voice. To removing distractions. And I spent the rest of my time on the road, in the peace and quiet, just talking and listening to Him. Trying to surrender and hear Him better.

I had been warned that these first few days would be rough, and I'm feeling it. But I'm also seeing how God strips things away to show what is really important to Him, and for that I am so thankful.